Fears.

There are many things I have yet to learn to do: Cook. Swim. Kill a cockroach. One thing I really need to learn to do, however, is drive.

No, this has nothing to do with the fact that when I was a very young kid, I made a promissory note to my sisters that said:

1. I would never learn to drive.

2. I would name my child Booger.

Not knowing how to drive has been a constant thorn in my side. Every few days/weeks, someone I know will ask me how come I don't drive. I don't really know what to say anymore. When family asks me this question, I get all defensive and just end up getting annoyed or mad. When friends ask me at times, I just say "Yeah, I really should learn."

Every time I ask a friend to pass for me or take me home, I am somewhat embarrassed. At times, I want to go somewhere but have no one to go with or no way to get there--so I don't end up going at all. Other times, I want to be on time for a certain thing, but find myself at the mercy of the person picking me up. I feel frustrated and helpless, but unfortunately, I really don't think I'm ready to learn. :(